Beasts, Savages…Survivors.

I just left the movie theater, and feel very odd. I decided to go see Beasts of Southern Wild. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was getting myself into. I just knew that when I saw the trailer a few times a while back it made me cry, both times. So I thought on this gloomy day, why not go to a crier? Ah nothing better than those damn movies that make you cry re: The Notebook.

All that being said, I did not cry. I was horrified instead. There were indeed some sad parts to the film, very very deep heart touching moments, but mostly it was horrific. The film was about a group of adults and a few children who choose to live in “the bathtub” after Katrina. They lived in shacks, shambles and booze. These people were not role models to the younger generation by any means. They were rowdy, loud, brash, drunk, abusive and most of all fucked up. While I was watching all this, I also found a beauty in them. They were a community who stuck together. They may have been drunks but they always looked out for each other, and when a storm came and destroyed their homes, they rebuilt, with what they had. These people were warriors, troopers, strong. These lessons that the children were taught were priceless. How to fish, how to build, how to survive.

All these thoughts got me going, and really thinking about society today. What would half of America do if Katrina happened to them? People wouldn’t even know what to think or do. A small percent of the whole population is super rich, and so used to people taking care of them. Or being able to go buy anything they want. We are so wasteful and spoiled as a society. It makes me ill. I make me ill. I was watching this and in the beginning kind of judging them. “ugh how gross, ewe, oh my god that house” were thoughts running through my mind. Luckily the thoughts that followed were “wow what an amazing young girl, I am so lucky, I am blessed to have a home and good food to eat”. I know a lot of my blogs are about thankfulness and gratitude, but I just need to share these thoughts. Spread the love per se.

I thank you for even reading this, and I hope that somehow, someway they help you find your gratitude as well.

Raw Emotion…

It’s 12:30 on a Friday. The first day of June is here. I decided to go to the Grove and do a little shopping, come home pay rent and eat some food from my full fridge. I got haggled into buying 60 dollars worth of a dead sea nail kits and have been kinda bummed ever since. I decided to do some research online and it turns out I got extremely ripped off. Warning do NOT buy Seacret nail care collection.

Moving on; so I was sitting here reading Facebook and came across a link to “40 of the most powerful photographs ever taken” I clicked the link and BAM! Got hit in the face with emotion I can not control. These pictures show everything from love, war, protest, bravery, honesty, and most of all raw emotion. 

As I was clicking through these pictures I was overwhelmed with gratitude. I can’t believe how lucky I am to be living in a wonderful house in Los Angeles and I get to eat organic, local foods and never ever have had to deal with a disaster. I am so very lucky. People have had to go through some unimaginable things in their lives, and I am worried about spending 60 dollars on nail care. Talk about first world problems. 

I wanted to write this blog to share this gratitude with you and hope to pass it along. We take our everyday lives and people in them for granted, and we shouldn’t. We are blessed everyday to have homes, food, clothes, cars, and even things we never think of like electricity, CLEAN running water. 

Please take a minute or two to reflect on how good you got it. Give thanks to the universe for providing you with everything you need. Check out these pictures if my words alone don’t inspire you. 

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Self Worth

This topic has been coming a lot in my life recently, so I decided to examine the idea of self worth. Otherwise known as self esteem or self respect. This is something we all think of and go, “oh yeah I totally respect myself and know my worth”. But do you really? Do you really believe you are worthy of everything you have and do? Do you really respect yourself at every moment? I know I don’t at all times. There are times when we forget, or we give it up without even noticing. 

Being a human means giving yourself to someone at some time. We give and take. To keep the balance between the two is the goal of life. Balance is what we all achieve to have in every instance, even if we don’t realize it. Sadly most times we don’t at all. We are running around stressed out, while our spouses, children or friends relax. I see this in my family a lot. The woman do everything for everyone, because they feel its their duty to do so. They feel its their calling as mothers and wives. This is an unbalance to the max. Life and its duties should be shared ultimately, and if its not it should be asked for, if you have a good amount of self worth that is. 

Another great example is this; “Hey Melissa! You look lovely today! So good to see you! Did you do something different to your hair? It looks a little crazy! Okay bye” The average person would respond “Oh my gosh thank you very much! Huh? Whats wrong with my hair? Is it okay? What do you mean?” This would then lead down a road of self hate and disapproval, and self consciousness. Why is my question. Why would you take the one negative thing, that possibly isn’t even negative and focus on it. What happened to the you look lovely? What happened to so good to see you? Why do these positive compliments fly right by us, but the negative stick around for so long? 

This is a problem with our society, and has also been so for me. I have made a vow to myself to focus on the positive aspects of myself and the words I hear from others. It seems so basic, but its actually very trying to change the way your brain perceives words. We are trained from a young age to compartmentalize emotions, thoughts and words. Its our duty now to change those paths in our brains and stop suffering from  negativity. Its really no way to live. 

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